Dark Clouds Be Gone

I have had a rough two weeks. I've been feeling really sick and depressed. It's a long story, which I'll write about soon. I have been feeling beyond discouraged.


This morning the dark clouds have lifted and the sun is shinning. I am so grateful. I'm feeling pretty good and looking forward to spending the day with my family. Here's what is on the books for our New Year's Eve:

  • Currently, watching Sid the Science Kid and watching Logan lick his breakfast plate clean.
  • Next, I will let the kids go outside and play!! Hello Sunshine!!
  • At promptly 11am OU Football will take control of our television. Big bowl game today. :)
  • At 3:00 I will be taking Abigail to a wedding. I'll tell her that it is a fancy party and allow her to get totally decked out!
  • Tonight we'll toast a glass of champagne and welcome the New Year.

Looking ahead to 2010:
  • I will turn 32
  • John will turn 31
  • Abigail will turn 4
  • Logan will turn 2
  • Logan will begin potty training
  • Logan will start preschool
  • Abigail will continue with a fuller school schedule
  • I'll start Abigail in a dance class
  • I will begin my Health Challenge (right, Becca!)
  • I will take steps towards getting my body balanced and feeling good!
  • I will watch my husband graduate from his Masters Program!
  • We will take our annual family vacation. One of my most favorite weeks in the year!
  • We will indefinitely face more challenges and struggles and continue to cling to the Lord to sustain us and carry us through.
Cheers to 2010! May it be a year of good things and many blessings!


2009 Year in Review: Aug-Dec

Lazy days of summer, hot hot sun and naked kids running around in the sprinklers. -SEPTEMBER-
My Abigail started preschool. She has done beautifully and seems to really love her teacher and class. She really is a little girl now. No trace of baby to be found.
Curious George and Pony Ballerina for Halloween

Hosted Thanksgiving at our house. It was fun to be with family. Abby made pilgrim hats for everyone, we ate turkey and then watched movies.
A quiet Christmas. A little boy who is almost two. A little girl who loves to talk and dream. A husband who I absolutely love to be around...he makes me laugh, he take good care of me, I love watching him with our children....a true blessing to my heart.

A year of blessings.


2009 Year in Review: Jan-July

Logan turns one. I made him a Tarzan cake because the only time he would ever sit still was when I would put Tarzan on the television.

John and I celebrated our 5th anniversary.
We took the kids up to the snow.
I turn 31.
We go to Disneyland. We had a great day. The kids were tired!

Abigail turns 3
John turns 30
We celebrated Easter

We celebrated Weston's 5th birthday.
Bounce house fun!
We were also preparing to say goodbye to the Bunnells.
Summer made an early appearance and brought with it swimsuits and ice cream
We went on vacation to San Diego
Ocean, Sea World, time with family, fun.


Ho ho ho & Fa la la la la

We had a really wonderful Christmas. It was very low key and I think that was part of what made it great! We stayed home, John and I cooked a great meal, Carmen was with us, and the kids were happy. Here's some pictures and a video.

Right now I'm watching Griswald's Christmas which is the funniest Christmas movie ever! "You taught me everything I now about exterior illumination" (for you dad! haha!)


Christmas Eve

We started out Christmas Eve morning by getting fancy. Abby made us all wear scarfs and such.

We went out for a few hours, picked up one last gift, went to Grandma's house, etc. Logan came home and feel asleep while watching Star Wars with Daddy.
Abigail and I went decorated cookies. Abby did all the work. She created two dozen masterpieces and ate about 1,000 sprinkles.
Logan woke up and joined us. He did not decorate, he just ate.

Before bed Abigail left milk , cookies, and her letter for Santa. She left water and carrots for the rain deer. She was so thrilled. She called Santa on her phone and told him to be careful and that mommy had picked up the mess so he would not trip. She also spoke to Rudolph and told him to fly safe.
Now it is 9:30pm and Santa just left our house. Ho ho ho. Merry Christmas!


Dear Santa

I never really thought much about telling my children about Santa Claus.


This year Abigail is three and a half and she really gets it. And it is fun to hype it up. Today we bought carrots for the reindeer, and on Christmas Eve we will make cookies for Santa. As I was making dinner tonight Abby was in the kitchen coloring. She asked me if I could help her write a letter to Santa. Here is a look at Abby's letter to Santa--decorated fancy of course.


This week in the Attwood home....

Abby, grandma, and I went to see the Nutcracker.
Abby LOVED it.
She was on the edge of her seat and loved the pretty princess dancers. Her favorite was the Sugar Plum Fairies. It was a lot of fun, and a great girls night.
Abigail wore a fancy dress, mommy's pretty hair clips and one of mommy's necklaces. She was on cloud nine! She even wore my scarf and was so excited to be on a date with mommy.

Earlier this week Abigail's preschool class had a Christmas party breakfast and gift exchange. Abigail did wonderful and Logan was thrilled to be a part of school!! He played on the playground, sat with the kids, and basically didn't stop running and playing.
Abby also had her preschool Christmas performance. She was awesome and had zero stage fright. She rocked it! (she's second row, second from the left)



Tonight my little ballerina and I are going to see the Nutcracker. i am very excited. So far this what Abby has said:

  • tell me about it mommy
  • will they be in ballerina shoes?
  • what color will their shoes be?
  • red?
  • pink?
  • purple?
  • black?
  • silver?
  • are their scary rats in this show?
  • will i be afraid?
  • will there be chairs?
  • will I have to go on stage?
  • will the music be scary?
  • what is it about?
  • is it like the Princess and the Frog?
  • is it a movie?
  • are there whales on the walls?

She's asked me each of these questions about three times. I think she's excited. Wish us luck.


Oh Holy Night

Tonight I drove the kids around to look at Christmas lights. This is the cheapest entertainment and they LOVE it. They were bathed, in their snugly PJ's with some chocolate milk. On the radio played some of my MOST favorite Christmas music. (Check it out: Sufjan Stevens=awesomeness)

**disclaimer--I am not responsible for finding any good music...my music loving husband is THEE best DJ there is. He finds all types of great music!**

Anyhow, one of my favorite songs came on. I sang it very loudly. My children became quiet. I'd like to think that they were captivated by these stunningly beautiful lyrics, but really I think they were in awe of their tone deaf mom belting out a song.

The lyrics of this song are just incredible. Check them out:

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior's birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming,
Here came the wise men from Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus in lowly manger,
In all our trials born to be our friend!

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Truly He taught us to love one another;
His law is love and His Gospel is peace.
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His Name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy Name!

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

I love the Christmas story. My favorite part of the story is when the multitudes of angles appeared before the shepherds. As I drove, I looked up at the dark sky. I tried to imagine what it would have looked like. A still dark night and then the sky filled with ANGELS VOICES!!!! Can you even imagine???? Incredible. I also LOVE how the whole shepherd/angel thing went down....check it out: (Luke 2:8-14)

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christa]">[a] the Lord. 12This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."

I appreciate the emotional honesty of the Word of God. I love how the people in these pivotal stories are very real. The shepherds were TERRIFIED! I would be afraid too if an angel of the Lord appeared before me. I can relate. And how touching that the angel's first line of business was to comforted them. Isn't that just like God. Always telling his people to "fear not." I love that. I love that because I happen to be a person who really struggles with fear. Praise God that He is ALWAYS comforting his children.


Happy Birthday Sierra

Happy Birthday! I cannot believe that you are THREE!! What a big girl you are!!! I remember that morning you were born. I was at my bible study when my cell phone rang. It was your mommy. She was in labor. I was so honored that she called to check in with me before the show really began! I wished her luck, said a prayer and hung up the phone. About 23 seconds later (haha!) your mom called and said, "it's a girl!!!" I remember the shock in her voice, she really thought you were going to be a boy. She, and your daddy, were thrilled!! I remember seeing pictures of you. You were so small. So delicate.

I wish that I could be near you so that you could shower your special Sierra joy all over me and sit on my lap. I wish that I could have a piece of your birthday cake and watch you open presents. I love you very much. I miss you very much. Happy Birthday my beautiful niece!

I love you!!


Logan's Love

He loves it.
He needs it.
He throws a fit without it.
It is his comfort.
It is how he relaxes.
It is his precious. (think Lord of the Rings)
It is a bad habit.
It is a pain in my side.
It is a hard habit to break.
I'm working on it.
Here is my son with his love.


Grateful Saturday

Today I am grateful for:

  • RAIN RAIN and more RAIN!!!
  • A cozy home
  • Soggy wet colored leaves all over the streets
  • Christmas music on the radio
  • A big Christmas tree
  • Dancing in the rain with Logan
  • Abby & John's date--they went to Princess & The Frog. Abby got her very own slurp-ee!
  • The sound of rain
  • The look of rain
  • The smell of fresh rain
  • My snugly kids on the floor watching a movie
  • Have I mentioned RAIN!!!!
It is coming down right now. It has been ALL day! So exicting. There will definitely be a fire in our fireplace tonight!


Fancy Abby

Have you ever hear of "Fancy Nancy?" They are books that are all about a little girl who dresses fancy, talks fancy, dreams of having a fancy dog, etc. She uses big fancy words like posh, exquisite, glamorous, and parasol. Fancy Nancy wants to live in France, she uses French words at times and her dog (who is not fancy) is called Frenchy.

It is a really cute series. We stumbled onto them when Abby and I were at the library.

As it turns out, Abby is our very own version of Fancy Nancy. Fancy Abby must have on heals, dancing shoes, ribbons/bows in her hair, tutu, princess dresses, scarfs, boas, jewels, fairy wings, and tights. She is very serious about this dress up business. It is hard work being fancy. I requires long hours and many wardrobe changes.

Even Abigail's pony is fancy. Meet Shampoo:

Abby does not allow her fanciness slow her down. She takes her fancy self to the mud:

to the trees:

to the dirt:
Even to my work meetings:
(aren't my co-workers neat women...they allow my daughter to dress them fancy as we work.)

Fancy Abby is about the furthest thing from tom-boy that you can imagine.

I have to admit that it is really fun. I am so glad that I was blessed with a daughter.


Currently in the Attwood home:

Abby MUST be in tights, a leotard, a tutu, and her dancing shoes at all times.

Abby insists that Logan is her sister. He is not a boy.

She makes Logan wear dancing shoes too.

She runs around leaping through the air and yelling at her "sister" to do the same.


Feeding the chicken

Today I found my children out in the backyard. They had found a piece of Styrofoam. Abigail was breaking off tiny little pieces and throwing them at Logan, who was crawling on his hands and knees like a crazy person grabbing at tiny little white bits of foam. I told Abby to stop because I did not want Logan to eat the foam. She looked at me and said, "that's not Logan. It is a chicken. I am feeding him. This is the hen house."

She proceeded to throw foam at her brother.

Oh well. At least they are quiet.

(oh, okay...I did watch to ensure my son was not eating the chicken food.)


The positive side of things

Today I am trying to think positive about each situation that presents itself. I have not been able to sleep for the last six days. I have no idea why. My whole body is weird right now. Insomnia, nausea, headaches, etc. If you think of me, say a prayer....I think I might have endometriosis. I'm trying to get into the doctor....


It's odd how you never even think of your health until things are out of whack, and then you long for the days when you felt good and promise that you'll never take it for granted again!

So, this morning I made a decision to be positive. To not get sad about feeling sick a lot. I think it helped. I had to mentally get into the grove, and continually pray to God and give my health over to him--I mean, since he's in control of it already, right?

Today is Wednesday. John has class on Wednesdays and does not come home until after 10pm. It makes for a looonnnggg day. Just me and my birdies. Together. For 16 hours. So, we went to the library and got Abby some new books to read. We brought John lunch. We ran into Megan and had a quick lunch with her. We came home. We played. We watched Little Mermaid. We painted. We ate. We played. We did a few rounds of time out. We played.

Which brought us to about 6:30pm. Homeward stretch. But I'm really tired. I don't sleep anymore. It's difficult. (mom, I so feel your pain!!!) So, I have a spectacular idea.
Push up pops in the bathtub! Genius!

It has not been that quiet in my home since before we had children. Not.a.peep. I was standing there, folding laundry and mentally patting myself on the back. I mean, sure, sticky push up pop water is somewhat counter productive.
But who cares!
They are happy.
They are so very quiet.
I am the smartest mother in the universe.

I walked away for a moment to put clothes in the kids' room. I returned to this.

Water fight!!

Kids laughing and screaming and water flying everywhere!!
Positive thought: they've washed the bathroom floors for me. How very convenient.

After I got the crazies out of the water, I giggled as I walked into the room and saw this

Little birdie buns. Aren't they cute?


Oak Glen

When I was a teenager I worked in a candy store in Oak Glen. Yesterday John and I decided to ditch church and take the kids to Oak Glen. It had been over 10years since I've been there, and I have to say that the sleepy little mountain village is absolutely charming! The trees were beautiful. The smell of apples and fresh apple cider in the air. Country music playing, steaming hot coffee being served and caramel apples as far as the eye can see! It was a really fun day. I didn't even feel like we were in California. A lovely change of pace.

We ate at Apple Annies. During our lunch a "gun fight" broke out--just a reenactment of a wild west scene. I thought it would scare Abby, but she loved it! They came over and gave her the bullet shell. I can see how this would have been so cheesy as a 16 year old, but coming back as a 31 year old mom to small children, it was fun to watch my kids as the guns started blasting!

Thee biggest day of Abby's life thus far. She rode a real live pony named "Angel." She was absolutley thrilled. Logan rode a wild little stallion too! (ps--apparently I was really excited too...see my face)

Abigail got a princess crown. No day is complete without some type of fairy/ballerina/princess dress up.

Pumpkins, half off.
Grandma bought the kids big suckers. Logan sucked it three times and used it as a sword the rest of the day. Abby, aka: sugar queen, sucked hers to the wooden stick.



Abigail and Logan are so opposite and although trying to please two very different temperaments can be difficult, I think their differences remind me of God's creativity. It blows my mind to think that no two people are alike. How incredibly artistic the Lord is. How can he think up so many different personalities, noses, eyes, toes, and laughs. Amazing.

-My Logan-
Risk Taker
Not easily intimidated
High Energy, needs to get outside and RUN

-My Abby-
Strong Willed
Deep Thinker
Low Energy, could read books all day