not feeling much like writing lately.
taking a little blog hiatus until the new year.

See you in 2011.


Thank Thee

O Thou whose bounty fills my cup,
With every blessing meet!
I give Thee thanks for every drop—
The bitter and the sweet.

I praise Thee for the desert road,
And for the riverside;
For all Thy goodness hath bestowed,
And all Thy grace denied.

I thank Thee for both smile and frown,
And for the gain and loss;
I praise Thee for the future crown
And for the present cross.

I thank Thee for both wings of love
Which stirred my worldly nest;
And for the stormy clouds which drove
Me, trembling, to Thy breast.

I bless Thee for the glad increase,
And for the waning joy;
And for this strange, this settled peace
Which nothing can destroy.

--Jane Crewdson (1860)


Lately I've been sad that my babies are no longer babies. How did this happen?? So, for some reason, I've been taking pictures of them while they slumber. They are just so precious.
But they are my cuties.



This week at church we studied "the terrible and wonderful day of the Lord." The day when we all must stand in front of God and receive a record of our life.

What was good.
What was bad.
How I used my talents.
How I did not use my talents.
What I invested my time and money in.
And the list goes on.

I totally understand why they call it a "terrible" and "wonderful" day. On one hand every single deed that I've done, good or bad, will be judged. = terrible
On the other hand, when I look up my judge will be God = wonderful. It is my prayer that He will know my face and that I will know his.

Here are the verses that accompanied our study. Pretty heavy, eh? But such a good reminder.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. Hebrews 11:6

For God will bring every deed into judgment, with every secret thing, whether good or evil. Ecclesiastes 12:14

Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. Therefore whatever you have said in the dark shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private room shall be proclaimed upon the housetops. Luke 12:2-3


Grateful For....
Little girls who strike a pose for the camera

Little boys who play with sticks and rocks

My son, discovering his world with joy and delight

God's creation--which keeps children entertained for hours

Nana & Papa who love their grandchildren well

My sister and the opportunity to be near her

The view of the coast on a warm fall day

Sandy little toes

The sound of the waves on the rocky shore

A little girl whose curiosity trumps her fear


I am a warrior princess of the King of Kings, chosen by God and saved by Grace.

Isn't that a cool thought. Or, even better, a cool reality.


Happy Monday---oh wait, it's Tuesday.


Logan just made two guns out of his
peanut butter and honey sandwich.
Happy Friday!


A pile of candy
A buzz and a ballerina
friends and family
church party first
trick or treating second
candy consumption
and apple before bed
a good teeth brushing
kids sleeping soundly
Happy Halloween


The night before Halloween.
Curlers in hair for ballerina-check!
Two very excited children heading to bed-check!
Dreams of sugar and bounce houses-double check!


Last night I went to check on the kids before I went to bed. Here's what I found:

My daughter who had taken all of her clothes off. She does this every night now because "she's hot." I think it is because she just discovered the option of undressing.

My son nearly undressed with his hand securely shoved down his diaper.
Being a mother to a boy is very interesting.
I have a feeling things will only get more interesting as he grows.


I used to think that kids were not really that expensive. When they were babies the main expense was diapers. For both Logan and Abby I received hand-me-down clothes for their first two/three years.


Now Logan is nearly three and Abby is four and I have no more hand-me-downs. This means a few trips to Kohl's to get winter clothes, new shoes, big boy/girl undies, socks, tights, PJ's, etc. $$$$$$$$$


Abby has moved out of the picky-toddler-eating phase, and right into the she-is-hungry-all-day-and-eats-a-bunch-of-food-whenever-possible phase.

I was thinking about my grocery expenses while doing 750 dishes tonight. I thought I'd break it down....just to see....

Today Abby and Logan ate:

  • one banana .20
  • two apples .50
  • 2 cups of peanut butter pretzels 1.00
  • 8 cups of juice (bad, I know!) 1.50
  • four pieces of wheat bread 1.00
  • 3tb of peanut butter .75
  • 1 tb of honey .50
  • one piece of chicken 1.50
  • two bean burritos 2.25
  • one small french fry 1.50
  • 3 cups of strawberries 2.50
  • one pudding .60
  • one applesauce .50
  • 1/2 cup of shredded cheese .75
  • three diapers (still working on potty training Logan) .75
That's approximately $16 per day, which is about $480 per month. Sheesh...that doesn't even count special treats, Abby's chocolate milk, and the food John and I eat. My grocery bill is steadily growing....

Kids = lots of money



I am in a women's bible study at my church. We are doing an inductive study through the book of Genesis. It is really good so far. A whole lot happened in Genesis and we're only on chapter 13! I learned something really cool last week as we were reading genealogy in chapter five. Here is the list of Hebrew names within the genealogy and their English meaning:

Hebrew name and it's English meaning
Seth -Appointed
Mahalalel-The Blessed God
Jared-Shall come down
Methusela-his death shall bring
Lamech-The despairing
Noah-Rest, or comfort.

The cool part is the meaning of the names is The Gospel hidden within a genealogy in Genesis! check it out:
Man is appointed mortal sorrow; but the Blessed God shall come down teaching that His death shall bring the despairing rest.



This was a hard summer.
I suffered from severe anxiety and panic attacks that seem to come from out of the blue.
It was very scary and I was, at times,
sick with an unexplainable fear that plagued my thoughts and my heart.
It was hard.
It was crummy.

On our vacation in July we went to Sedona, AZ.
There was summer storms everyday.
Oh how I prayed for a rainbow.
I wanted to know that God could hear me,
so I asked him to show me a rainbow before we left.
Each day I looked in the sky, hoping to see one.
As we drove away from our hotel the last day, my eyes searched the sky.
It was my last chance to see a rainbow.
I was desperate to know that God heard me.
I never saw a rainbow.

I persevered through my summer.
I struggle through fear and honestly wondered if I had lost total control of my world.
It was hard.
It took everything I had to believe that God would be faithful to me,
even though I could not feel him or hear him.
He seemed to be silent.
I did not know why.

I woke up every morning with a knot in my stomach,
unexplainable fear in my mind,
and desperate prayers on my lips.
I read scripture.
I wrote scripture on 3x5 cards and taped them to my cupboards.
I called my mom a lot.
My received much prayer from many loving people in my life.
My husband carried my load and held my hand.
I shed many tears.
I read more scriptures.
I wrote down gut wrenching prayers in my journal.
I begged God to reveal himself to me.
I pleaded with Him to pour our his powerful spirit on my life.
I did not feel much of anything,
at first.

Months passed.
Prayers continued.
Continual conversation between me and my Heavenly Father.
Night and day I talked to Him.
I shared all of my fears with Him.
I filled my home with worship music.
Honest conversations with close friends and family.
Humbled to the core.

Then something started to happen.
When I prayed, I felt better.
When I prayed, I felt better.
When I prayed, I felt better.
It really works.
God is really working.
He is big.
He is my comfort.
He is my fortress.
He is my shelter.
He is my hiding place.
And you know what I learned.
He hears me.
He may not answer immediately.
He may not comfort immediately.
He may not give me a rainbow in Arizona.
But, he gave me faith.
He taught me how to believe, even when I could not feel my prayers being answered.
He taught me that the darkness of fear and depression are not too big for him.
He made himself real to my life.
My weakness was a good thing.
It was a great thing.
My utter weakness showed me his unmeasurable strength.
My fear ushered in His love.
My anxiety made way for a real relationship.

I would not change my summer, as hard as it was.
It made my relationship with God real.
And you know what.
He brought a big ol' rainbow right to my doorstep tonight.
He'll be faithful, even when we have to wait a bit to see our prayers answered.


I've just been enjoying the last part of summer.
It has been peaceful.
I am grateful.

John did not find this princess picture funny.(but isn't Logan pretty?)
Mud is a good thing!

Abby got her face painted at a family day festival. she has never been brave enough to do that, so I was very surprised when she begged for one. She was so sad when she had to take a bath.
Swimming with my new nephew Liam.The girls pretending to be Veggie Tale characters. Silly gals!
Logan has learned to sleep in his big boy bed. He sleeps upside down, with covers thrown everywhere, and toys surrounding his body. But, hey, he's sleeping. :)
Abby, Liam, and Logan. cousins.
Me and my gal having fun together.


We moved Logan into a big boy bed this week. I also moved Abby's bed into Logan's room because they wanted to share a room. I thought it was a great idea. Now they each entertain each other until they fall asleep, and they seem to sleep in later! Yes! The only problem is nap time. Logan just plays in his new bed, but he does not sleep. Yesterday I found him like this at 5pm!! Way to late for a nap, but he just couldn't stay awake! I love that there is peanut butter smeared on his cheek. I guess his peanut butter sandwich hit the spot and make him sleepy!

While Logan cat napped Abby and I made peach crisp from all the fresh peaches from our tree.

I woke Logan up and came back to the kitchen to finish making the desert, then when I returned to the front room I found him like this. That little stinker wouldn't stay awake!